are you lightning?

new year.
i keep seeing so many "2008 year in reviews" and "preparation for 2009" themed things and it's kind of overwhelming.
2008...
i don't want to reminisce in all honesty. for me, it is unhealthy to dwell on my past and i do it far too often. stay in the moment.
2009.
so insignificant. if there are over 6 billion people right NOW, i'm nothing. and then considering the number of folks that were alive thousands of years before. adds up. and i'm nothing. we're everything. i can't decide whether things change or they always stay the same. right now, i think it's stupid to even think about that. some things change. some things don't. keep moving.
but that command, to keep moving, it sounds so harsh. like, "get back in line and keep moving. don't hold anything up. we've gotta keep all this running smoothly here"
so. i will keep moving. not for the sake of the world. but for me. to feel the sense of movement. i think that should be a sixth sense: movement. i mean why not? i think everyon has more than five senses but since no one voices them, no one understands. and they can't quite wrap their minds around it. can't call it anything because it has no name. you can't hear, taste, see, feel, or smell it. and we are taught those 5 things and nothing else. anything else is dillusion. nay. i don't believe. why would be limited to five? we hold such a great capacity. we do. you, you do.
you can feel movement. but it's not really "feeling" because there are no nerves involved. and come to think of it what about emotions. wouldn't that be a sense on it's own? i mean, just like being blind, some people are numb and can't "feel" emotions. right?

sorrysorry.
happy new years.
resolution: move.