i can never get close, i can never get close enough, i can never get close enough to you

"all my life i've been lost out in the darkness,
but i can't ever seem to get enough."


and why? i just want to know. was i not fine before you? why will i continue to chart my path into the same puddle of quicksand. stuck forever. slowly sinking. why? this is not need. this is something deeper. something was always missing. and i came close to telling you. oh, no, i'll never show you the weakness. you are right. but i don't care. and i can't seem to get enough.
oh, i'm setting myself up for this one. with complete awareness. can't keep myself to do anything else though. can i get a sign of hope from you? no, that won't do. i need proof. and i need you to be different. and not be the low standards i think you'll fill.


(i just love metaphors)


"I didn't ask you to stay. But you stayed.

I never asked you who you were
Or what you wanted. You were simply there.
What did you want from me, love? Was I not stronger alone?
And did I ever need you? But stay a bit longer.
Not long until they stop asking how I am
and I stop answering, "Fine."
Everyone can tell at a glance: You are here.
If you ever leave me
I will go with you."