sleepwalking

aaaahhh.

heartbeat racing.
pounding hard against my temples.
beating too fast to keep track of.
breath comes quick and shallow
although gulping more air in than ever
the oxygen creates a dizzy sensation.
eyesight now blurred and tunneling.
fingertips shaking causing unsteady handwriting.
limbs shaking if asked to move.
a shaking, shivering wreck
heaped on the ground across piles of clothes.
gasping for too much unneeded air.
the oxygen creates a high-like feeling.
and stomach churning, can't hold anything down.
sick feeling climbs up throat.
do anything to keep the sick down.
still shaking and still beating and still breathing.
too much movement on the body's part.
cannot convulse, shake, beat, gasp, rise, and run all at once.
still quaking. still not even sure if breath is being drawn.
but heart still beating faster now than ever before.
although chest has caved in.


and this was on purpose? i don't think this is exactly what i wanted. can i get different results, please?