you are an ass, a snake in the grass

ryad has started a personal blog. he's got a lot of pictures up. very good.

i beasted my Julius Caesar speech today. 69/70. aw yeah.

oh, it feels so good to be done with you. this is some kind of relief i have never felt before. i just want to laugh. at you. and at myself to ever feeling what i did. and for giving you a second (actually way more) chance. i don't even care anymore.

and it's good to know how i can just laugh about this. it's actually really effing hilarious.
your words mean nothing to me anymore. in hindsight, they are more comical than any joke i have ever been told. real effing hilarious. it's good to know now that you were such a good liar.

but i think i'd trade the fast-approaching winter for summer. and i'd rather be sarcastic than perverted. and i'm more comfortable with no friends than a large group. and i like piano better than guitar. your lack of knowledge completely disturbs me. 0-1 car wrecks. i hate paying $9 for a movie ticket. i would rather be outside than in a car. or outside than sitting on a couch. i wish you took me more seriously. i wish i could take you more seriously. and i wish you could see me through different eyes. maybe of a clearer color.
and i would take hurtful honesty than silence any day.


can't you? just, please?