school year hasn't even started and i feel like i need a break.
i will have one last, good adventure before August 11th.
just looking around my room i hate everything; my carpet, my walls, clothes strewn about, random pieces of trash i picked up on walks and have no idea what to do with. i mean, i love everything in my room, i just need something new.
i miss my typewriter.
i need a bookshelf.
i need more polaroid film.
if anyone is ever at a loss what to buy me for a gift or whatever, some polaroid film would be lovely.
"but mom, i feel like painting, not doing bookcards."
i really like to believe that SOS stands for save our souls. nobody tell me otherwise, please.
maybe a haircut would be a nice change. even if it isn't, why not? it's just hair.
you said you'd wait, and when i tell you that there's no need for you to wait anymore, you walk away? would you like to wait another four years? i cannot keep playing this game if that's what you want. you know that i don't wait like you do. you know.
she's trying to rekindle a fire that had burned out a long time ago. but i took the ashes and remains from the fire and tossed them in the creek behind my house. there is nothing left binding us together. i'll never ask you to come back, i'll never grant your request for me to come back. you made a wrong move, and i'm walking away from the game. you can take the pieces, make a memrobilia, do whatever you please. just don't tell me when you miss me, don't tell me that you think we could be okay. i'm glad you feel like you can't look at me. i don't want you to. i hate feeling your eyes picking out my every fiber and analyzing me. just know, i'm not going to grant your wish. do what you please, just don't include me.
mm, random post that turned into ranting. apologies.
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well..wikipedia says sos can be "son of a sock," just thought you should know. :P
and what's more...polaroid film. amazing. sarah has a super older polaroid camera and we took a couple polaroid pictures, but film is exspensive and we're perpetually broke teenagers. but there is nothing cooler than polaroid pictures.
haha oh wiki, you're so silly.
iiiiiii love polaroid film. mhmm. i was heartbroken when i heard they quit making it. so now it's even harder to find and it will be all gone soon.
i have found that i quite enjoy reading your ambiguous rants :)
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